so i don't "hate" myself, but i wouldn't say i "love" myself either.
would you say you’re in a
“well, i don't hate myself,
but i don't love myself either."
if you are,
let's talk about this weird
middle spot for a bit,
so here you are now,
maybe you've been able to stop
calling yourself "fat" or "ugly,"
but still feel awkward calling
maybe you've been able to accept
that you are human and are allowed
to be imperfect, but are still having
a hard time looking past your imperfections."
....so what do you do now?
to be honest, this is a hard question to answer.
because a part of me just wants to say,
well keep working on learning to actually "love"
those parts of you. but that can be hard to do.
in my journey of self-love,
learning to stop "hating" myself was the easy part.
...but learning how to actually turn around
and start "loving" myself,
was a lot harder.
how do you learn to embrace yourself?
fall in love with yourself?
.....i almost look at this like a romantic relationship.
it's awkward as hell in the beginning,
but after a few blushes,
some very limited conversations,
and some even more awkward hugs,
it starts to feel a little a little more relaxed,
and over time you both get used to
each other and have no problem
saying the words "i love you."
here you are with yourself at
the beginning of your "love" relationship,
and it's super awkward, no?
whenever you look in the mirror,
it's this super awkward interaction of
"ugh, i am human, i have acne...it's okay
...(but at the same time) i really really
wish you weren't there."
or "so i don't hate you body,
but this dress would look so
much better if you lost just a few..."
does this sound about right?
okay. so what do you do?
you keep having these awkward interactions.
you keep staring at yourself,
without looking the other way.
you keep talking positively to yourself,
even if only a few words come out at a time.
you keep giving yourself hugs. why?
because you should be giving yourselves hugs.
...and hopefully, eventually you
will start to feel less awkward "loving" yourself.
and in time you might just become
best friends with yourself...you never know :)
so my answer is to keep living out
this awkward period.
j from mtg
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